Reaching Singularity

My feet felt the earth, coldly warm and moist; a fertile earth that speaks of many tongues: that of the lemon, the olives, the oranges, the bay leaves.

The earth let out a sigh whispering to the wind its secrets.

Senses awakened,
Winds caress the lake beyond.
The smell of bay leaves.

I took the bay leaves from the earth. The textures brushed against my thumb like an ancient script carved in a fragile cloth. The words were beyond understandable; the earth’s alphabet written and shaped by the tongue of the winds.

There is an experience a longed for, that of singularity. To be one with nothing, and yet everything. The colors and shapes of the world limit your imagination. But complete blankness, an empty state of mind, has unlimited creativity, and unlimited potential.

It was the first and only time in my life I longed for nothing.

I closed my eyes. Breathing controlled in a very faint, slow rythm.

The earth enveloped my feet, the wind engaged with the bay leaves in my hands. I took a breath.

The sunlight slowly faded away. The tree I leaned my back on lost its support… I felt afloat. The wind no longer moved. Everything became still.

Element by element, my surroundings disappeared. I lost my feeling of the leaves. I could no longer feel the texture, nor the moist earth, or the sun’s warm rays or the winds chant.

The lake disappeared last.

My conscious, for the first time ever, felt indistinct from my subconscious, until it fell asleep. My subconcious arose, and I sang of feeling.

Lost fragments of thoughts wandered like spirits, until they, too, became ashes of a flame.

I was in total darkness, with no feelings of coldness, warmth, dryness, wetness…. no lust, no love, no hate, no fear… a state of nothing, and yet everything.

I did not even feel happy.

I did not feel any emotion… I do not remember any form of feeling or seeing anything except complete darkness.

The only feeling I could possibly relate to was peace.. but even that I could not define in absolute terms.

Hours and hours passed by …

Until my conscious surfaced again… and the senses rushed back, and the elements of my surroundings came to.

It barely passed a minute, in real life. But it was the best less than a minute I have ever experienced Syria.

I kept the bay leaves.

Genesis of Zero

I was born from the egg, and, being coming from an egg, I was shaped like one. But then man came, and said unto me:

“thou art not fit to be an egg. thou shalt be round, and round thou shalt be, and from whence u came thou shalt forget, and hither shalt thou be, all round and, uh, round”

And so I became round, until I was confused with a roman letter O, and, then, a Roman emperor came and said:

“you confuse us, foul number, with a letter O, and from here on, thou shalt be marked”

And I was marked with a stroke, forever scarred.

But then came a tribe from Eastern Europe, and said

“your scar led our people astray, for we have a letter O with a stroke, as well as one with a crown. Thou shalt be unstroked, but thou shalt be made thinner, for us to ensure the safety of our O”

And thin I have become… deprived of all the glory I had once had.

Abused for generations by men, I vowed revenge, and said unto man

“I am the great zero. Thou hath abused me, and I for long stayed silent. But now I exact my revenge unto thee, and thou shalt no longer be able to divide by me. For if you do, thine division will yield infinity, and infinity thou can’t grasp”.

And so man became forever confused, forever abused, and fear me, the great zero… for generations, they tried to understand infinity, and time, and space, but can’t… for I am the great zero, indivisible… and now I rule their science, their machines, and their currency… from an egg I came.. And to an egg I shall return… a full circle of life, and death, a full circle, a zero I am, and a zero I shall forever be.

At the End of the Maze

I recently discovered that my VGA card on the PC has the ability to produce another desktop on another screen, namely the TV. So I bought some cables (stupid thing cost me 30 DHS) and plugged them in… and viola! I got myself a nice movie theater. Bye bye stupid DVD player which can’t render all movies correctly.To honor my victory over the DVD player, I watched Pan’s Labyrinth, and I gotta say that this is one damn good movie.

The story speaks of a little girl and her mother moving in with the stepfather, who is a strict general and is currently trying to hold off a group of rogues. The girl sees a fairy, and, as you would expect, everything goes crazy. I don’t wanna spoil the beautifully creative movie (and I mean creative), but it brings up a number of interesting points, specifically, how a person deals with the surroundings by going to a place beyond the normal, mentally (a place I call LaLa Land).

When a person undergoes severe stress, and can’t resolve it, they try to escape it. You may call them schizos, but the movie doesn’t speak of schizos per se (although there is one scene where you get the impression otherwise) but rather of the concept of a “better place” than the one you are in.

Strangely, this “better place” also has its downfall, its demons and whatnot, and it is up to you to decide if you want to stay in LaLa Land or in reality.

I love the movie. Get it.