Moment

For the first time, in a very long time, if not ever, I decided to “live the moment”. And for a while I have never expe­ri­enced such ecstasy before… every day was not only a new day, but com­posed of indi­vid­ual hours all beau­ti­ful in their own ways.

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The morn­ing hours are beau­ti­ful in the cool morn­ing sun, the smell of freshly washed linen hang­ing to dry; tak­ing out the garbage to clean up the apart­ment; the relax­ing (!) drive to work; and lis­ten­ing to the Quran which has become part of my daily rou­tine, whether or not I pray.

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The noon hours beau­ti­ful in the mes­sage exchanges with my loved ones on twit­ter and on the phone; the thrill of finally get­ting a hideous work task done; the grate­ful­ness to the fact that it’s part of my job to use twit­ter and Face­book and even YouTube; being around amaz­ing col­leagues, and look­ing for­ward to the time I leave the office. Espe­cially if it wasn’t a par­tic­u­larly “good” day. Then I drive home, far out­side the city, leav­ing all prob­lems and wor­ries behind.

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The after­noon and evening hours, filled with books (now dig­i­tal, even) that fill my soul and cre­ativ­ity — like eat­ing. Oh, eat­ing! The joy of eat­ing is one thing I can­not begin to explain. Even if it is a sim­ple cheese sand­wich… pressed on the grill, with a cucum­ber or a salty tomato on the side. And olives! God’s gift to mankind… and my new infat­u­a­tion with dates! I can eat them all day, feel the tex­tures with my tongue and let them melt in my mouth… much like how I have a Hershey’s or Galaxy.

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And I miss hav­ing bis­cuits and tea with my grand­mother. Bless her heart.

The night looms, but I am no night owl. I learned that I do and think ter­ri­ble things if I don’t sleep before mid­night. But that’s when I enjoy writ­ing as I am most hon­est to myself. And I enjoy the flicker of the can­dles in the back­ground, and the dim lights, with the shad­ows of the arti­fi­cial tree in the apart­ment dance on the walls. I often see shapes and peo­ple and a story being made.

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And when it’s time to sleep… oh! The smell of the sheets… the feel­ing of sink­ing into the mattress!

This is bliss — enjoy­ing moment to moment.

And last night, I slipped, and thought about the future, my life, what I am doing, how I ended up where I am, and the dark­ness ahead I never man­age to see through, and the shad­ows I left behind out of fear and disgust.

And became depressed.

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• http://jansait.wordpress.com/ Jano

  get yourself out of this KJ.. write more often, get all this out.. and dream of the future, make sure it will be something great.. because it will.. lsn to Rock Out by Anis Mojgani.. it has always been an inspiration to me, as well as the Quran and The Prophet by Jibran Khalil Jibran.

  i enjoyed your description of enjoying moment to moment.. very peaceful and inspiring. enjoy it :)

  Refuse to be let down even by your own self.. but again, taste the bitter and taste the sweet.. all part of the package that life offers..

  Good luck hun

• http://twitter.com/twimnc D

  Oh my, i havent been blog hopping for a very long time. i love the changes u made to the layout too. i also like when u write from the heart, u manage to always move me when ur mushy :p never think too long or too hard about anything thats not the now, coz if u keep looking backward, u will never move forward, and if u over plan for the future or u look at it with an over analyzing eye, u will dread it and fall into depression. just live today.

• Arnous81

  I am very with living in the moment. My belief is that if you focus on THIS moment. And make good decisions based on this moment, your future will be just fine. Because the future is only in our mind anyway. There is only now. And the future comes, its gonna be the same NOW youre in, now lol.

  Anyway, where did you get this idea? There’s a good book called Power of Now that gives insights into his. A great read check it out.

• Anonymous

  I didn’t read that book or any book regarding now versus future or yesterday – it’s just a phrase that I keep hearing over and over: enjoy today, live the moment, worry about now, etc…

  It’s very difficult not to think about the future… but when I don’t, I feel much better

• Anonymous

  Thanks D! Yes I did make a few changes… I think I will stick to this version for now :)

  What you said is true, we should live today, but it requires a great skill to do it properly

• Anonymous

  Thanks for the support Jano! I will get out of it… and I will always be inspired by the little moments we always tend to overlook!

• Anonymous

  Thinking about the future is a good wake up call every now and then. Helps you plan and prepare for worst case scenarios. Just don’t let the thoughts consume you though.

• http://michcafe.blogspot.com Mich

  Hopefully the good moments are more frequent than the less good ones… Keep going, it’s the only way :-))

• http://lifedamasscene.wordpress.com/ Yasser

  living the moment is the right thing to do, especially when you create space for yourself to reflect and take your time before making decisions.
  good luck:)

• Anonymous

  That’s what I try to do..

• Anonymous

  I hope so too!

• Anonymous

  Unfortunately, being who I am, they will consume me. The past few years have all been immaculately calculated, and then everything fell apart because of circumstances I couldn’t control. I have to admit it’s the best and worst thing that happened to me, but oftentimes I just cannot think of the future and would rather ignore it altogether!

• http://allouh.wordpress.com/ Mohammad

  live and enjoy the moment kj that’s the best thing one can do, but never let some thoughts about future blackens your path, just think about the good things and plan for the best mate :-)

• Anonymous

  You’re right :)