Ramadan is different this time around. Things have changed over the past couple of years for me and many other people. Personally speaking, this Ramadan would be an interesting one.
Despite everything else, Ramadan has always been one of the happiest months. It’s undeniably mostly psychological, but often it doesn’t matter how we feel good and happy as long as we do. It’s these simplest notions of guilt and pleasure that we build our lives upon. Otherwise, why would we invent so many things to make us happy and detract us away from what upsets us, which, with no coincidence, we, too, built.
Life to me, right now, is nothing more than manufactured, by our greed for power and desire for superiority. My religious side has always been bumpy as it never is easy to be part of a multi religious and partly atheist family. Regardless, whatever religious systems present are moral codes to regulate society. The truthfulness of the poetry or legends behind them doesn’t matter anymore in 2010. What matters is the outcome – power and prejudice. Normally, people have given up, and those who didn’t stick to their own derived forms of established ethics. Which is fine. God is God, in the mind or in the metaphysical – it really doesn’t matter as long as we’re happy with ourselves.
I haven’t prayed in two years, bar some intermittent sparks of piety, and I almost but completely forgotten why everything is the way it is to begin with. Yet in the night God is my only companion, and I still remember when I was a kid, praying that my dad would buy me the Nintendo 64 with Super Mario, which he did, in the States out of all places. I remember how God always answered in one way or another. And I explicitly remember praying to be made redundant so I can be happy as I don’t have the balls to quit a job – because I like to see everything through – and it’s been answered.
And yes, despite the depressive episodes and my mood swings, I am, overall, genuinely much happier than before.
In any case, you can learn about Ramadan over many places, but moryarti summarizes eloquently here (and on a humourous note,here). If you wanna start learning how to cook, no better than abufares‘ wonderful, but obtusely detailed recipes. You can also read Mr. Tahhan’s blog filled with delicious recipes and foodly photos from different cuisines.
Wishing you all a blessed Ramadan and more importantly, happiness and content with who you are, and your life, regardless of whatever you pray to, or don’t.