see this for myself

I Wanted to See This for Myself

And that’s what very few people really understand.

Here’s a thing you didn’t know about shy little KJ – I love experiences, but mostly, I love experiencing, something I myself was would be aghast with disbelief a few years ago. But while many people change, I mutate, not necessarily into something terrible. On the contrary, every passing day I feel more human.

Society’s idealistic approach to brainwashing people is that we all have to be perfect and play our roles in The System. That’s fantastic in theory, but there’s a flaw: Those creative visionaries of The System are anything but perfect themselves. And as it turns out, neither is The System. I asked once abufares, at a time when I was hitting some low notes the past year, how does the world work? To which he cunningly responded It doesn’t work, it gives the illusion of it being working.

Which is pretty fine, actually.

If we look at the greater scale of things, whatever we do here is merely a microscopic representation of everything else outside this planet. Divine symphony or not, The System works because of the natural chaos of things.

Going back to my original point, which I didn’t yet make, is that I wanted to see this “nonsense” myself. And a good opportunity to do that was to exploit my one year of unemployment where I had the finances to back it up and the lack of commitments to a wife or girlfriend or children. Admittedly I haven’t done a particularly good job – I haven’t done drugs nor have I bothered to check into a nightclub for the sake of binging and waking up in a morgue – but I have gained more insights about myself that I would probably have not if I had followed the way The System should work. That’s not to say I am now not missing out on what could have happened had I been part of it, either.

If I am not making any sense then it’s alright. It will be over soon.

Here’s food for thought: If The System should only function in a certain way then why do all these other variables and imperfections happen? My two cents: It’s because it’s the inherent natural order of The Process that The System does not function as it should, which is exactly why it is functioning as it should.