World of Feelings

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People often ask me: Why? Why do I do this to myself, why am I eccentric, why can’t I ever be normal, why can’t I just do things like any other mortal would?

I don’t feel the need to answer this question, most of the time, except with “because this is the way I like it”. And, in fact, I quite do like it, despite the many downsides of things.

An older friend I’ve known for years and take as an older brother told me “I don’t see why you need to feel like you have to follow what people do… instead of following someone’s footstepts, deviate, carve your own path and let people follow you instead”.

I am a person whose life revolves arounds feelings. I believe that feelings are what makes us who we are – a complex and amazing species. We rationalize, argue, justify, dream, inspire, aspire, fall in love; fail in it.

I embrace feelings. I bathe in emotions, day in and out. I do not feel the need of being “constantly happy”, nor do I delve for depression either.

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The brain – mind rather – is an extraordinary contraption often misused and abused. People spend a lot of their waking hours actively seeking happiness. “Think positive”, “keep happy thoughts”… running away from everything else in an endeavour to find happiness.

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People do not realize they spend so much mental effort to find happiness when it’s right under their nose.

Thoughts are thoughts. We label them. We make our thoughts happy, or sad, or just keep them thoughts. We all indulge in and expand on our thoughts. We elaborate, recall similar memories, and in turn set our mood. We can’t help but think. We get drained when we are actively thinking only happy thoughts, instead of allowing thoughts to flow naturally.

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I don’t actively seek happiness. Not in the conventional sense anyhow. Yes, I do things I like (it would be foolish to spend your time doing something you don’t, a job notwithstanding, for the time being). Yes, I do spend time with people I love. 

But emotions come in pairs. To experience one in exclusion of the other takes away the power of the emotion. 

I dream, I rise above all and perform the exceptional in a mundane world when I am happy. I turn to my soul and understand myself as I relish in anger, cofusion, sadness.

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I spent lots of my life lying around in my emotions. I have a penchant for exploring the depths of my feelings. I live them all the way through. Happiness, anger, melancholy, lust, loathing, affection, ecstacy, agitation, solitude, hatred, sentiment, to name a few.

Breathing them, enjoying them as they are, understanding their nature and exploring their dynamics – this is how I live. This is how I am empathetic. This is how I understand people. I know how they feel, and I know it well.

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There is a unique sublimity in understanding the transiency of feelings, and their flow. It allows you to appreciate your moments – and while we all strive to be happy, it is a form of happiness when you understand your feelings and your current state of mind.

It’s what make us who we are, after all.




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  • Hmm .. i never know how to respond to such posts.

    #> ps -e | grep emotions

    hmm .. so i guess i used to be nicknamed "the stone kid" (well, not really nicknamed because only one person called me that ... in fact, i was called by that nickname only once .. but let's pretend that my point is still valid) .. i guess i still haven't explored to full range of emotions i am capable of feeling .. but .. yeah ..

    emotions confuse me :-(
  • i do not seek happiness, I usually seek inner peace and balance. It's imp for me to be in touch with my inner self and to understand the state-of-mind am in, and to know what it is I am feeling.

    Only then I can decide whether I want to change this feeling or live the depth of it.
    When I do not realize what it is I am feeling...when things get too overwhelming, I actually feel stressed and lost and that's when it is time to stop, sit down with myself for what I call an internal audit or reality check.
  • True, you are absolutely right. I caught myself asking all these questions many times but couldn't stop my emotions from giving birth to more thoughts, and questions. It was actually mentally draining to fight against myself, so I gave up, and totally submitted to the power of my feelings and I now operate the opposite way, my emotions come first.
    I thought maybe am genetically made up that way, so why put up a fight ?
  • I really loved your post KJ! Very brilliant and well put.

    This is exactly what I'm trying to evoke almost everywhere i go to. You can't always be happy and follow the mood or the atmosphere of those around you simply because you "have" to go with the flow!
    You'd be lying to yourself to hide your true emotions which would be unhealthy to your spirit.

    And then, if you followed your own path and acted exactly as your emotions and feelings dictate you to be (feeling sad, happy, down, blue, agitated, depressed etc) they'd accuse you of being moody and you have to be flexible!

    This is crazy! They make you feel like a total emo for being who you really are in that particular moment!

    Some people are robots! You see them happy in every freaking single day with the same attitude, same smile, same behavior, same eveyrthing! I can't really see that as normal!
  • jarofjuice
    Noura -
    Hmm, it's a touch question, but you actually got it the other way around. They are connected to emotions, but thoughts come first, and you give them emotions. You're thinking it's the opposite since you most probably come aware of it in the middle of the sequence (when the emotions already surfaced and are bringing up other thoughts).

    It's very tough to control your feelings and let your thoughts flow just like that. We are human after all! But now that you are aware of it, you can catch yourself in the process. If you find yourself thinking "why didn't this person call me? omg is she/he hating me? was it because I did this or that? Did they have an accident?" etc etc... if you catch yourself from the beginning and say "ah, here I am again on my train of thoughts.. there is probably nothing and I am over dramatizing things" then you'd know what I mean.

    Another simple example: why do your current-dreadful experience is a hilarious memory tomorrow? The facts of the event did not change. You simply give it different emotions.

    Zaher -
    Hala bul zuze, lol, badri :P halla2 ta3refet!
  • Zaher
    You are complicated.
  • I am made completely of emotions and it sucks sometimes..I am not only aware of my feelings but everybody else's too, whether happy, sad or whatever, I can detect it all and find myself taking a ride with them too which makes me very sensitive and drained.
    You said :"We make our thoughts happy, or sad, or just keep them thoughts...."but aren't they connected to our emotions ? how can I let my thoughts flow naturally without the control of my feelings ?
  • jarofjuice
    Qwaider -
    LOL! 7aki fadi 3ala oltak :P

    Simply Me -
    Experiencing them is different than sharing them :) You might feel weak when exposed, true, but I am talking about emotions in general, not specifically the time when you feel vulnerable

    MissNoName -
    Welcome to my blog! Yes indeed, it is all about the yin and yang

    Nizar -
    Hahhaha.. I knew someone would say something among the lines of "go get laid" - I am not trying to convey what I feel or anything right now. I merely felt like talking about emotions. I find it interesting that people think about the negative oens when such a topic is discussed!
  • Wana share a blade? :P

    just kidding, seriously now, try to satisfy your emotional needs through natural means, its a risky road that can end with you being emotionally unstable.

    I find difficulties understanding or feeling what you are trying to share with us, I guess I am not as emotional as you are but I can feel the part where you talked about all what people want is happiness.

    happiness on its own means nothing, it is counter emotions that give happiness its precious value.
  • "But emotions come in pairs. To experience one in exclusion of the other takes away the power of the emotion."

    Thats so very true! Its all about the ying and the yang afterall. You wouldn't really be "happy" if you never experienced being "sad".

    (and yes I'm finally dropping a comment, haha!) Interesting Blog! :)
  • I used to believe that to be emotional and know the importance of feelings in shaping our identity and making us who we are is a must. That those who don't share this thought are strange.. for me they didn't even exist. Though I have learned to admit and realize that it's a weakness point.. it is something I no longer value.
  • ya Zalameh ma 3reftak :)
    Sho emotions oo 7aki fadi ... :) sho hal harj?

    Kidding aside, I think we're all like you. To different levels... And we admit it to different levels. That's part of our individuality, we just can't help it!
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